So. Mind games. Yah.
All week I keep saying to myself, "This isn't going to work anymore" and "This is too easy - getting under 170 is gonna take a lot more than this" and "I'm totally screwing this all up." All of that fun stuff. I've been at a total mental block about the possibility of getting any lower or smaller than I'm at right now.
What's weird is that this bizzare "guilty" feeling keeps coming up. I haven't strayed from my eating plan! I haven't cheated! I've been working out! AND I feel guilty like I'm not deserving of any more weight loss or like anything I eat is going to mean failure, or if I don't kill myself in a workout I'm cutting corners. Seriously, I can't figure out what my deal is.
So today I was talking to Jess (personal trainer) about it. He was blown away, because he looked at my eating for the week, and looked at my body, and asked me if I was clinically insane. Well, he didn't use those words exactly, but that was his vibe. Guys, I've been so good about my eating too. First of all, cakes, ice cream, treats of any sort, and candy, and almost all soda have been totally out of my diet since day 1 (I'm not a sweet tooth so it wasn't a big deal, although I do hate going to Kneaders and looking at the eclairs). My biggest challenge is fatty foods like cheese and salad dressing and mayonnaise - you know those yummy creamy things that make food divine? I'm supposed to only eat 2 of those per day, and about once a week I slip up and have 3, or 4. And once 5 (like I'll get mayo and cheese on my sandwich for lunch, and then have dressing on my dinner salad).
Whoa, back on topic. Sorry about that.
Jess said I was crazy but he's paranoid about scales. Oh, by the way, I never weigh or measure myself at home. I'm the type of person who would weigh myself 10 times a day if I had a scale so I just don't. So Jess hates scales because weight can vary by so much, so he decided he'd measure my waist to see if I'm really getting stuck or just being nutso. My waist is down another 0.75 inches since I last measured 2 weeks ago! *PHEW!* So I AM just PARANOID!! Ha ha ha. Then he said that he's tripping over my thighs - that every time he sees me they look like they're WAY smaller. So he measured my thighs just for fun. Each thigh is 1 inch smaller than it was 2 weeks ago! Now, that's NUTSO.
Yah, so I guess I'm just wigging out all on my own here!
I'm REALLY grateful for the peace of mind, though. I've got this! I can SO stick to this for another 4 weeks and go down another size. What do you think, size 10 for October?
That's a great goal, because I can just go to a store where sizes run big and get a size 10 no matter what! Lol. Ok, for the sake of science, I'll shoot for a size 10 of Lucky brand jeans, because those were my tightest size 14's when we started. I'll probably be rich in 4 weeks too, so I may just buy them. And if I'm lucky, stonewashing will be back in style. Mwahahaha ok ok. I'll stop.
Here are some ideas of good out-to-eat food, by the way, that are easy peasy. For anyone who doesn't already know, I don't eat starchy or candy carbs after lunch. This is usually between 2 and 4 pm depending on if I wake up at 7 to work out or sleep in until noon after dancing.
1. Kneaders. Period. It's a local bakery/cafe that has soups, salads and sandwiches and whole heap of pastry items. Stay away from those. If you can't control yourself around brownies, might I recommend the drive-through? I get a 1/2 sandwich there for my meals all of the time on hazelnut bread. They also have a combo platter deal that is really nifty. I get a salad and a cup of soup. I eat the soup and bread for lunch, then eat 1/2 of the salad for my next two meals. Three meals, one stop. Perfect for work and I spend less than $10.
2. You can actually go to Cafe Rio or Bajio, or Costa Vida, or any of those casual mexican dining restaurants and get the salads made with no tortilla, no beans and no rice = no starches. Split the remaining meat, veggies, salsas and dressing in 2 and you've got 2 perfect meals for about $8.
3. Fast food Asian like Teriyaki Stix or Panda Express - like at Panda Express I get the 2 entree meal, ask for only 1/2 rice, and then eat one of the entrees with rice for lunch and the other entree for my afternoon snack.
4. Denny's, IHOP, Village Inn. Oh yah! I said it! Want a FABULOUS carb free meal? Get steak and eggs, no toast, no hashbrowns, but have them give you sliced tomatoes and a big piece of lettuce instead. Delish! I also get any of the omelettes that have no potatoes in them and on the side get tomatoes instead. Late night heaven. (Jess said that late night eating isn't horrible, so long as you eat 2-3 hours before sleeping. What's horrible is late-night starchy carbs - don't go there).
5. Any of the salads from Arby's, Wendy's, McDonalds (they have the fruit and yogurt parfait AND the fruit and walnut salads for CHEAP). Just be sure to ask for grilled chicken, skip croutons and voila! The two evening meals with the only carbs coming from the dressings.
6. Subway, Hogi Yogi or any other deli is an easy winner, so long as you watch your balance of mayo, cheese, olives and other sauces. Trust me - you can live without some of them for one meal at a time.
That's enough because this post is getting a little LONG.
Just throw in a FORM or two as soon as you decide where you're heading and by the time you get there and order, you'll be asking for a doggy bag to take half home for later! I'll admit, sometimes it's annoying to have to explain 15 times that I don't want the rice, beans or tortilla with my salad, but really, REALLY - I'm down almost an inch on my waist in 2 weeks ... it's a killer tradeoff.
You can do it! I didn't even believe I could do it this week, and I am! Woot!
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